Age 29 got 13 lakhs of loss doing options trading

At age 25 i got job started f&o at age 27 and in two years got 13 lakhs of loss, I used to make some profits but that profit made me do trading daily. One red daily totally wiped entire savings and earnings. Now I'm on loan of 13 lakhs which I'm repaying each month emi, currently my job is in IT. I'm thinking like now is the time I have to change myself entirely, because how can I not think before only that I'm losing such a huge amount of money, at that time I should have stopped. This means I don't value my time, energy and money, I just want easy life and easy success.

Now I'm planning to do a job switch by next year raise my salary, totally change my routine be away from friends, just study and be at home spend time with family, do exercise and change myself entirely by next year.

So that my salary can increase and also i can repay loan, save some amount, and make my parents dreams fulfill.

But there is a problem I can not be able to think positive, after making such a big loss, that I'm in guilt and sad a lot. That by making this mistake I made my parents comfort and dreams killed, also instead of going forward I came backward. The money I lost I could have done so much with that amount. My parents would have been so much happy.

Please can you help me to go into the right direction, what should I feel now and think. Does any one else have been through such losses by f&o options trading, how much loss and how you survived and how can we grow?????