Throwing in the regard towel, finally.

20 years old and have spent the last year and change stressing myself over stupid options trades I didn’t need to take. The thing is, before I started options I wasn’t making stupid investing decisions. Put a good portion of my money into ETFs, and I bought NVDA at 98, and SNDK and 55 last year and sold them for marginal gains so I could gamble my good investment decisions away. The last account blow up I had where I took a look at my all-time chart made me realize that I am literally doing the same thing over and over again, just with greater amounts of money. I do want to keep investing in shares of companies I do actual DD on. Any advice?